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Naked, sun-kissed and sprawled out as the sun starts to set. Lean in and kiss me please, but slip your hand up my baggy sweater and grab my breasts. The girls are craving your touch. So make it last for me... please make it last... I want it. I want you.

This weighs on my heart as heavy as it does on my mind. I have been reluctant to offer group shows since my return to the cam world end of July 2018 after my 4-month break from the cam world. As important as it is to earn credits each time I log on... I intuitively am more compelled to hold out and wait patiently for privates. Most days I wait in open chat for as long as 4 hours - embarrassing I know. That's the truth, and there are many records of that. For those that know me on a personal level, you know I am a real introvert. You know I am most at peace, most myself, and most comfortable one on one.

I have never seen myself as an entertainer, an actress or a "show". I am not on here to drain you of your credits. I am not on here to be a form of entertainment for you. I would fail at attempting to do both of those things. I know that because I know what I am capable of and what I refuse to do as well (I refuse to be anyone else than myself).

For the 2 years prior to starting this cam journey, I had every intention to continue blossoming, to be a healing, loving woman to the men I knew I would virtually encounter. I knew I could be a positive impact through my sensuality. So, that being said, moving forward into 2019 I hope that I can still be an influential, positive and inspiring woman in your life. I hope for that; because that is what you have been for me since the first few moments you have blessed my life with your presence.

Lots of love,
Leila

p.s. I get asked regularly by viewers that don't know me personally to do group shows. they're looking for a "bang for your buck" experience. That instantaneous pornographic, non-emotional "one pump chump" experience. I don't cater to that form of entertainment.

I also don't frown upon those that do, so please don't assume the worst here. I tried to do it a couple times in my early cam days (October 2017) and knew right away that it just wasn't for me. If you can convincingly persuade me to act, to become more of an entertainer and less of myself for the sake of credits, than please try to persuade me ;) I would be interested to hear what you have to say.......

I remember the first time we met. It was late at night and I had just finished my last nuru massage for the day. My whole body was aching and glistening with oil, which in hind sight, I should've showered prior to going to the grocery store.

I shuffled my way through the aisles in my tight indigo high waisted denim shorts and loose white v-neck t-shirt. You were well worth the goosebumps I momentarily suffered while I reached into the back of the walk in freezer. I just had to have you! Especially considering you were on sale, and I could never resist a good sale.

As I excitedly pranced to my car with you cradled closely against my chest, I had this ridiculous internal dialogue with myself, "would it ruin my appetite if I have one popsicle before dinner. I mean, after all it's just one popsicle....hmmm maybe I could have just a few licks... just a few licks from the base to the tip...."

I swiftly ravaged apart your packaging and had to pause for a few moments in awe struck with the thickness and the girth of you. My mouth was salivating and I knew at that moment, I would happily take in your deliciousness every day of the week.

1 year later and I am still taking in as much of you as I can handle.... I love you so much my dear mango popsicle.